Her name was Willie. She was a Miniature Schnauzer. She died on January 15th, this year. I loved her sooo much. I found her when she was a puppy,in the middle of the street. No body, or others around.
She was thirsty, hungry, and in terrible shape. She came running up to me with such desperation.I put her in my coat pocket and took her home.
My wife and I never had children, so we just spoiled the hell out of her. She was my daughter. We spoiled her into obesity, sadly. She always had breathing problems there after. When she was nearing her end,she knew she would soon die. I think she could feel how terrible I felt about loosing her. The day she passed I knew she would. My wife went to work, I didn’t for fear she would die alone. I layed with her all morning long. She would lift her head up, and take a gasp of air.
Looking me in the eyes, I could almost hear here saying goodbye daddy. This had gone on a little while. I got up to use the bathroom. When I returned I found her lifeless body dead, and alone. I can’t believe I did that. I feel terrible. Do you think she felt abandonded
when she passed?
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Other People's Thoughts
I do not think Willie felt abandoned by you.
I rather suspect, that as long as you were by her side, she wouldn’t let go, because she knew how much pain that would cause you.
So when you left for the bathroom, she could finally let go of this world.
It was her last present to you.
— Wiebke Wednesday December 10, 2008 #
no, often animals will wait until they are alone to let go, I imagine because they don’t want to go while we are there…..
— me Thursday December 11, 2008 #
That was a truly touching story. In my experience, animals prefer to die alone. My cat’s time was coming, and he must have known, so he ran away. I think your Miniature Schnauzer was probably waiting for just the right moment to be alone, so she could let go. She didn’t feel abandoned. You stayed with her all day, and she must have known that.
— Zac Friday December 12, 2008 #
No. I don’t think she felt alone. I think she didn’t want you to see her pass. It almost seems like she waited for you to leave. Aw. My heart goes out to you and yours.
— clscott Wednesday December 17, 2008 #
I think she waited to pass until you were gone. People do the same thing. Sometimes our presence keeps them hanging on…when we leave their sides they can let go. I have a dog that is like a child to me as well. I dread the day you describe!!
— Donna Wednesday December 17, 2008 #
Absolutely not! She knew you loved her very much and waited until you left to pass. Even humans do this – they wait until the family members take a break and decide that is their time to go. You must not feel guilt. There are no accidents.
— Patty Wednesday December 17, 2008 #
I don’t think she felt abandoned. In my experience, having been around many pets at their twilight, they ofter prefer to die at a moment when they’re alone.
She may have let herself go just then because you gave her the space she needed to move on.
— Sympathetic Wednesday December 17, 2008 #
Sometimes animals will wait until they are alone to pass on. If Willy could have walked, she may have ran away from home. Don’t take it personally, you were a great parent to that wonderful animal. God Bless you.
— Andy Saturday December 20, 2008 #
I don’t believe she felt at all abandoned. If anything, she chose that moment to die in an attempt to spare you having to watch.
Any heaven I believe in includes dogs, and I believe she is up there looking down on you.
— Christine Tuesday December 23, 2008 #
No, you did not abandon her, you were not suppose to be there, she waited till you left. thats how its suppose to be. its ok.
— sadest memory Wednesday January 7, 2009 #
You didn’t abandon her..you didn’t know that a 30 second bathroom break would be the difference between being there and not being there. She knew she was loved.
— robb257731 Saturday March 13, 2010 #
No, in fact I think she waited for you to leave the room so you didn’t have to see her pass. She knew how much she was loved and still does because when it’s your time to pass over she will be there waiting for you.
— Mac's Mommy Monday November 1, 2010 #
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