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The Saddest Thing I Own, Owns Me
Posted On Tuesday June 6, 2006 By Chris
I am 31 years old…....I have high blood pressure…...I weigh 395 pounds….I cant find clothes in any normal store….seven days ago i started my diet and have been journaling my calories, always keeping less than 2000 a day, already i feel smaller….Last year i let someone i love down and they died…thinking about it had me on the phone to Dominoes…I used to be thin, but in the past ten years i have turned to food for comfort…yet the more i ate the worse i felt…so i just ate more…..Tonight i only had one piece…and felt sick..thought i would share
Tags: abuse, addiction, food, hunger, worthlessness
Other People's Thoughts
You’re not alone. Many, many people struggle with food issues. I certainly do. Your body shape doesn’t define your soul, or impact your value to the world.
Anti-depressants saved my life; it was like moving from a black and white world to one of brilliant color.
I’m sorry you lost someone you loved. Sometimes even the best we can do is not enough, so forgive yourself and try to find some joy in memories.
You don’t have to live with such pain, so please ask for help.
I’m beaming some love at you!
— Cosette Tuesday June 6, 2006 #
You are loved, by me. You have my love and support at your disposal, every step of the way. When it gets dark, I’ll turn on the lights. When you fall, I’ll pick you up. You no longer need food for comfort…you have me.
— Gina Tuesday June 6, 2006 #
I grow bigger everyday and slowly I stop doing things I like. I never want to tell anyone my weight because it is not the determinant of who I am.
Don’t starve yourself if you are already eating healthily. There is always a place for us.
— Hilla Wednesday June 14, 2006 #
Dont worry about your weight so much. Just maintain a good habit of daily excercise. Its good for depression and will lower your blood pressure. Also, forgive yourself for those past mistakes. Recognize them, take responsibility and then move on. Good luck!
— Ted Sunday June 18, 2006 #
it is not what we look like on the outside that counts but who we are on the inside that matters. please realise that you are loved and reading your story has put you in my daily thoughts now. please be strong and realise it is just a choice that you make every day.you will be where you want to be if you want it bad enough hun. good luck!!!I lost 40 pds over a year ago.it has changed my life . 8 glasses of water a day is the key.drink a large glass before or after each meal.. take care.
— Lori Friday June 23, 2006 #
I am 30 and I am morbidly obese. I have always turned to food for comfort too. I tried different diets, journals, calorie charts, and pretty much everything you can think of. Finally I went to talk therapy. After just three months, I found what I call my “core” issue that has caused so many other problems. Even ones I did not think were related. I was surprised to find that I no longer needed food for comfort. As a result, my weight has started to drop. Food is no longer my best friend; it is just a tool. I can only tell you what helped me, you will have to look within yourself to find your path. Please know that I will think of you often.
— LaLa Wednesday June 28, 2006 #
The Saddest Thing I Own is a 2005 commission of New Radio and Performing Arts, Inc., (aka Ether-Ore) for its Turbulence web site. It is supported by the Jerome Foundation in celebration of the Jerome Hill Centennial and in recognition of the valuable contributions of artists to society.
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