4 Days after two hearts met, a happy german man and a happy australian
woman were wandering through Lyon’s sunny streets.
Somewhere in an adventurer-shop i found a single serving
stovetop espresso-maker, that caught my eye. As i was broke,
but had fallen in love with the machine, i begged her to buy it for me.
She did. Long story short – i flew to Sydney – she came to Hamburg
and as we made plans to follow our hearts, i decided to try to come to
australia for a longer term.
The everyday-business, and incompetence on both sides separated
us. The most painful fight i’ve ever experienced. And whenever
she was furious, she would quote coffeemaker as one of the things
she had done for me.
Three years now, since i’ve seen the one woman i would
want to spend my life with. She’s a mother of two now,
grabbed the next best guy – got pregnant and married.
She’s separated now. Two beautiful kids. And me thinking
of her everyday. Crying at night, when i can’t sleep.
The espresso maker is standing on a table in the living room.
It haunts me in my dreams. I want to fly over there and just
put it on her doorstep, with a flower growing in the cup.
Other People's Thoughts
That’s a great coffeemaker.
— Kimberly Monday May 22, 2006 #
Do it… just go. You have to take chances once in a while.
— adventurous Tuesday May 23, 2006 #
There’s a reason I focused on the coffeemaker.
— Kimberly Tuesday May 23, 2006 #
Don’t let the opportunity pass by again. She might be dreaming of you too. It’s worth it! I fell in love at first sight 35 years ago, and we are still blissfully happy. Dreams can come true!
— Grace Wednesday May 24, 2006 #
I could understand if you’d be afraid she could feel not the same.
But I think you should do it and go there. Because otherwise you’ll never find out. Perhaps she still thinks of you too.
I wish you love and happyness
— frau.ke Saturday May 27, 2006 #
How can you NOT go? It’s destiny.
— aunt rella Tuesday May 30, 2006 #
Please go. Your story tugged at something in me. Maybe it’s not over yet?
— another Grace Thursday June 1, 2006 #
The Saddest Thing I Own is a 2005 commission of New Radio and Performing Arts, Inc., (aka Ether-Ore) for its Turbulence web site. It is supported by the Jerome Foundation in celebration of the Jerome Hill Centennial and in recognition of the valuable contributions of artists to society.