This is sad, but not too. Really, more pathetic.
I had started my first “real” job, one I interviewed for and earned, one I had to dress up for. I get to wear makeup and feel appreciated. I decided to start wearing lipstick this summer, and discovered a shade I really liked in a drawer full of lipsticks I had bought and ended up not liking. I had no idea of when or where I actually bought it. When I wore this color, I felt unstoppable and powerful and I know that sounds silly- it’s just a lipstick. But, I guess we are judged by our appearance and we do feel better if we like what we are wearing.
Then, one sad day, I dropped my purse after work getting into my car. A few things spilled out, and I picked them up and took a quick look under the car to see if I got them all. As I pulled out, I heard a nasty “pop” and saw what you see here in my picture. I guess it had rolled under a tire out of sight. I tried all over town to find another lipstick that shade, but my magic color is gone forever.
Tags: cotton-candy, frost..., i, it, pink, think, was
Listen, I linked to this site from Fark but seriously, stop dwelling in your own tragedy. While I concede that there are several unfortunate events that I empahize with, you need to accept that life will continue and, for lack of a better term, suck it up.
No, I’m not being snarky. I’m being realistic. In the last year, I lost my wife to divorce, four friends to Iraq, and damn near ended it all three times. But I didn’t. The depression wanes. If you have a true life changing experience, I understand and hope you know that despite all other appearances, it will get better. Depression is a valid medical condition; seek help and pull yourself out. Meds suck, but they help and will keep you from drowning.
Now, on the other hand, if you a a high school kid who is hurt because you don’t quite fit in, you didn’t get the perfect life in suburbia, or whatever —- shut the fuck up. Life brings true pain that you have yet to comprehend so stop being a pussy and get outside. You are the only thing holding yourself back. Seriously; it is one thing to feign dispair, it is another thing to live it. Embrace that you are smarter, more creative, more insightful. All those other dumb jocks will be working for you one day. But until you’ve actually felt the depths of hell itself, don’t pretend to have been there. Turn off the fucking MCR and take a hike in the woods or something. things will get better if you put some effort into improving yourself.
Tags: death, familty, love, war
The saddest thing I have is a giant bottle of Welbutrin in my medicine cabinet at home. I take it twice a day so that I can function. I have dysthymic disorder; I’ve been mildly depressed for five years. Every morning I open my medicine cabinet, and I know that today won’t be much better.
Tags: depression, life